Author's Preface
Friday, 20 September 1895
I saw Beth today and noticed her belly getting large. She tells me it is because she is going to be a mother and that she will get larger and larger until the spring when her baby will be delivered. Why does she have to get bigger and why for so long? Does she need to show God she has enough food to feed the baby by eating more or something? Do all women become mothers so soon after marriage? I have so many questions but I am afraid to ask.
Beth is very excited about becoming a mother. I would be afraid. I don't know how to be a mother. How would I take care of a child? What if they are mean like Mrs. Stewart's children? If I can just never be married I will never need to be a mother, but everyone keeps telling me I will have a husband one day so maybe I have to be a mother. I hope Beth's child is nice. I wonder if the baby will be a boy or a girl.
Maybe I’ll ask Sister Grace. I should be getting another letter from her soon. I wish she wasn’t so far away so it didn’t take as long for her letters to arrive.
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